I know I created this place for pictures, by I really felt it in my heart to share my latest post from myspace. ;)
It is titled "Praise God!":
There are times when your faith is lacking. There are times when you are crying out just to see if God will answer. This is how I have felt for a while, now. That is, until a few weeks ago. I finally gave up control and stopped pushing so hard for a definite answer, and this is what followed:
A friend of mine, Katie Moormann, invited me to a wednesday morning bible study. I decided to go just to pass the time... wednesdays are usually slow for me. And if I’m going to be perfectly honest with you all... I was bored the whole time! I didn’t think I was going to go back, but something was really tugging at my heart, making me feel obligated to return. The next wednesday I was getting Madeline and I dressed for the bible study when my mom called- they were taking the family cat in to the vet and this wasn’t good news at all. I rushed over to find out she was going to be put down after 16 or so years of good kitty livin’. The following wednesday I felt that tug again and I listened. I returned to find open arms and loving smiles. I took a breath, sat down and listened. I think my heart was truly open and ready this time because their words really touched me this time around. I was beginning to see how hardened I had become. These ladies were all so sensitive to scripture; I haven’t even cracked open the bible more than once a week in I don’t know HOW long. A verse started to repeat in my head: "Be still and know that I am God.". Since then, that verse has resonated throughout my daily walk with God.
Be still: Be still and know that He is the only one that can reach out to my brother. I can love him, but I am not in control. Only HE is.
(This past sunday, my stepbrother attended church with us and was very obviously moved by the sermon. His tears made my own tears start to flow... it may not have been the brother that has been on my mind lately, but heck, God works in mysterious ways! Thank you Jesus for answering.)Be still: Be still and know that He will take care of Brian’s work situation.
(That very wednesday, after Katie prayed for Brian’s job, Brian got a call from a woman he interviewed with the week before, and she offered him a job. Today he called back with a counter-offer and was accepted. HALLELUJAH!)Be still: Be still and know that Madeline’s many illnesses right now will pass in time, and even for those that don’t... she is HIS child, HIS creation; I am only a temporary shelter.
(She is sleeping through the night again- mostly!- and her illnesses seem to be improving while my patience is also growing. )Be still: Be still and know that He will guide me at work to say and do the right things.
(This past week I have had three people talk to me about my faith. One of them came to me saying "Aaron told me you were a christian, and I had some questions for you." And instead of my usual fear of talking about my faith- mainly the fear of not knowing the right things to say- I felt sure of myself, my faith and my words. I just opened my mouth and the words poured out. That was definitely God’s work!)I am still afraid. I am still unsure. I am still HUMAN, afterall. It is so comforting, though, to be reminded...
I am not alone. I just need to be still and know...
He is God. I will be ok.
